I have a lot of love for this book.
“True terror isn’t being scared; it’s not having a choice on the matter.”
It’s been years since I’ve read a John Green book. Back in the day, I used to love his books. I read all of them one after the other, and An Abundance of Katherines became my favorite. But I think this is my second favorite.
Turtles All the Way Down follows Aza, a girl on her senior year of high school suffering from OCD and anxiety. Aza and her best friend, Daisy, gain interest in the sudden disappearance of a billionaire because there’s a hundred-thousand dollar reward for any tips leading to him. Aza knows Davis, the billionaire’s son, so they investigate starting with him.
This book gutted me for many different reasons. There were so many things going on, but it all made sense somehow. I want to start by talking about Aza’s OCD. She constantly went on spirals, moments where she obsessively worried about getting a disease that would kill her. I was hesitant about reading the book at first because of this, but now that I’m taking my own medication, I feel a little better about it. However, reading about Aza’s tremendous struggle was conflicting. Part of me, the weaker part, went on those spirals with her and wanted her to go to extreme lengths to feel better. But the saner part of me worried about her well-being, and wished that she could get the help that she needed. Either way, I liked the representation very much.
I know a lot of people didn’t like Daisy, but she was my absolute favorite. Daisy spent so much time writing Star Wars fanfiction, talking way too much, and dragging her best friend into all sorts of things. I saw myself in her. I really loved her. I wanted to know so many things about her. We only got glimpses through Aza, which was one of the problems in their friendship. I understand that Daisy made some mistakes, and she wasn’t always a great friend, but I think she truly loved Aza. Their friendship gave me life. It was so sweet at times. I believed it. It was so real and so true.
I thought Davis was awesome. I felt for him throughout the book. The guy didn’t deserve all the weight of the world on his shoulders at such a young age. He worried so much for his younger brother, Noah, and he just wanted to have some peace. I wanted him to be happy. I never really rooted for him and Aza to get together, but I wanted his happiness so badly. I was glad that Aza was there for him and supported him as much as she could. Davis was so soft. I loved that he cried anytime he felt like it. I loved that he wasn’t bothered by his emotions. My sweet boy.
The plot was good! I don’t usually like the plot in books, but I loved it in this one. It was subtle but totally engaging. It’s seriously such a great book.